Saturday, March 3, 2012


So I wanted to see what exactly the definition for denial was. I googled it and got the definition from Wikipedia.

Denial is a defense mechanism, in which a person is faced with a fact that is too uncomfortable to accept and rejects it instead, insisting that it is not true despite what may be overwhelming evidence.  The subject may use:
  • simple denial: deny the reality of the unpleasant fact altogether
  • minimisation: admit the fact but deny its seriousness (a combination of denial and rationalization)
  • projection: admit both the fact and seriousness but deny responsibility. 

I am so happy that it has been almost exactly 2 weeks since God has revealed to me more evidence than I could ever imagine on my illness! I remember the countless prayers I said asking him why I couldn't get to that point of happiness. I knew that there was a void somewhere. I asked him why it could be such an amazing day yet end with a sense of loneliness. The moment he shed light to me that I was struggling with Bulimia, I felt an instant warmness in my heart. Not that I wanted to have that answer or even have an illness like that. But the fact that he heard my cry! Definitely in shock and dismay I had the opposite effect that moment. I was hopeful and in awe that my prayer had been answered!

What I did not realize at the time is HE helped me already defeat one of my very first Cognitive Consequences!! DENIAL!!   I have beat down that consequence and it can NOT harm me anymore!!!

Thank you Jesus that you have never given up on me and that you took away my DENIAL!! Thank you Jesus I can't say it enough!!

1 John 1:8-9 ESV

If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

Titus 2:11-14 ESV

11 For the grace of God has appeared, bringing salvation for all people,
12 training us to renounce ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and godly lives in the present age,
13 waiting for our blessed hope, the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior Jesus Christ, 14 who gave himself for us to redeem us from all lawlessness and to purify for himself a people for his own possession who are zealous for good works.

The first step has been conquered Lord!!!! and only by your humbling grace!! I am ready to take down another one!!!

1 comment:

  1. Just want you to know I am SOO proud of you for keeping up with this blog. Praying for you girl! You will be blessed for this, I'm sure of it. :)